Bitter Tears 2

Assalamu'alaikum
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Terhimpit Antara Dua.

Satu
Manakan dapat berbicara. Hanya hati yang berkata-kata namun bibir tiada mampu meluahkan apa-apa. Terluka hati apabila tiada mampu meluahkan segala.

Dua
Manakan bisa menghulurkan keringanan. Hanya meluahkan kata namun lain empunya yang merasa.

Apabila pertolongan menjadi satu kesulitan.
Apabila kasih sayang dibutakan.
Apabila kasih membutakan.

Ya Allah,
Aku tidak mahu mengalirkan air mata,
Bukan kerana aku tiada mahu menangis semata-mata,
Atau jua kepedihan hati itu sedikit cuma,
Namun aku bimbang,
Andai tangisan membuatkan aku terlemah,
Saat aku mendaki tangga kekuatan

I just want to help.
For the sake of Allah.
To make things better.
Also for the sake of Allah.

What I regret the most is.
I foresaw all these.
I tried to avoid it.
I reminded myself lots and lots.
But it's useless.
And I feel so powerless.

I'm sorry.
There's nothing that you can do to help lighten this burden.
I'm the one who listened to all that.
And I'm the one who'll listen to all that.
I'm the one who cried all day long.
And I'm the who'll cry all day long.

So let me face it alone.
Really.
There's nothing much you can do.

And I've made my decision.
If anything ever happen.
Goodbye.
I won't be on any sides.
I'll just go.
And let things be in the past.
Because I need to move on.

Nevertheless.
Everything happened for the best.

P/s:
Thought of withdrawing.
But I guess I'm just too far ahead.
It's better to move on.
And bear with it.

No matter what happens.
I'll just be strong.

Sometimes I wonder.
Did I do something wrong that lead me to all these?
But to think of it.
I guess it's not that.
It's the price that I have to pay to help someone.
Helping both that I really loved.
It's just another trials for me.
In order to perform my duties as khalifah.
They might have misunderstood.
It's okay.
Allah knows me best.
Allah knows my intention the best.

Another P/s:
Islam dan Insan
Siapa yang boleh menegur apabila ulama dijauhi.
Siapa yang boleh perbetul apabila al-Quran tiada cuba difahami.
Siapa yang boleh memberi tunjuk ajar apabila sunnah tiada diikuti.
Dan sesungguhnya.
Hidayah itu adalah milikNya.