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The secrets will be revealed one by one.
Still, the ending is yet unknown and unpredictable.
Truly sorry for the chaos that I've created.
It's the only way for me to prove that life is not all about that.
Yes, it needs more and it can give more.

It's not that I don't love both of you.
I'm even doing it for the sake of your happiness.
Perhaps you view it otherwise at the moment.
Well, that's ok because it acquires lots of time to prove that I am on the right track.
So I'll just be ready.

At the moment, I'm truly relying on Him a hundred percent.
I don't have any more strength to move on.
It's Him that continuously bringing me forward when I thought it's over.
Perhaps there'll be another hope that He spares for me when I feel hopeless again later.
Hope that will keep me alive.
InshaAllah.

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I am trapped in the middle.

Sincerely I've been waiting for this moment to come since 2 years ago.
Truly I'm glad that it happens.
It's just that I don't know whether I'm strong enough to face it.

Give me strength ya Allah.
I feel like He is helping me, even though it seems otherwise to others.
I'm really grateful that at last He seems to answer my prayers.
Yes, He knows what is the best for me.
But it's not easy to convince others to believe what I'm seeing now.
It's not easy to convince others that I'm making the best decision now.

Last night I had a confusing dream.
It's a voice of me, telling my minds to proceed with what I had planned.
But it's not convincing enough.

I need to do more Istikharah prayer.
I need more convincing signs ya Allah
Help me....

Tired of waiting! ~

Somehow I feel like I am totally exhausted of waiting.
I was hoping, and still I am hoping.

Please dear sunshine.
Shine through me so that I can smile again.
Please dear rain.
Pour endlessly so that I can be soaked again.
Please dear moon.
Accompany me through the night so I won't be lonely, again.

Yes, I know.
It hurts a lot.
Even words won't be able to speak.
Even stars won't be able to shine.
Even me, myself won't be able to smile.

But still, I hold on to You.
I put my faith in You, and I believe that you had a better plan than what I had planned in my mind.

Please.
Give me strength, so that I can bear with it.
InshaAllah. Amin Ya Rabb.

P/s: Patah hati :(

Hanyut

Ah.
Aku hanyut ditelan ombak badai mengganas.
Maaf.
Mungkin hari ini aku sebegitu.
Namun akan aku bangkit pada hari seterusnya.

Mudah-mudahan kebangkitan ku ini tiada ku dibawa arus lagi!